Hm. Last few hours left in the day. Not hours but minutes.
The day is almost coming to its end and so is my teenage life. The clock will
strike 12 soon and the date would change. A few calls and some whatsapp texts
would fire up as soon as the clock would show midnight! To be really frank, two
hours ago from now and I didn’t even care about what was happening; that it was
actually my last eve as a teenager and the realization dawned on me that
tomorrow I’d turn twenty and would not have that ‘teen’ as a suffix in my age! I
was always a cribster and wanted to come out of this teenage period as soon as
possible. I considered it as really unlucky and stressful time. I hated my
life. I hated every bit of it. My mind starts to run down the memory lane as I
recall all the sweet n salty moments of life about how things were and how they
have changed over the period of time. The
reminisces of the past start playing like a record in the head! The memories
of what I looked like in school with parted hairdo and a geeky look hovering
like a bumble bee in stupid attires! All the crazy little notions and silly quarrels
I engaged in with friends in the name of new found ‘maturity’. The new found
freedom that came with the tag was always welcoming. I am still laughing my
heart out over those memories! The infatuations I had developed in class 9th
on one of my seniors. You know that you are such a dork and will never make it
but you still somehow convince yourself that she’ll be yours one day! From
being parents good child to becoming a spoilt brat! The age has such an effect
on you that you start to question each and every thing happening around! I was
bullied and made the centre of a hell lot of jokes. Crying in the corner was an
evident escape (as I said I’m a cribster)! The first love, ahh, magical eh?
Every teenager comes across this silly ‘first love of their life’ in this
period (same as me) where everything and everyone goes down the gutter as you
swim in your own magical sea of love willing to be engulfed by it with all its
might! All that matters to you is that ‘love of your life’ (jaanu, baby, shona
and a list of never ending cute nick names) and all that it would take to make
it work! Of course with that first true love accompanies the first heartbreak
where you think you are left in pieces and will never ever be the same again!
When you feel that life will never get back on track and you start losing
everything you possessed. You start seeing things upside down not because they
are that way but because you are hanging upside down with a blotted mind that
you are correct and nobody understands you. Friends turn into foes, you feel
your parents let you down as you feel they don’t care about you but only care
about your falling grades (can’t blame them)! All in all life starts to suck in
your head. You find yourself having even suicidal thoughts at time! Silly me!
You somehow work out things and start to take one day at a time but still break
down in the night and feel you can’t do it anymore! The studies front is also
not that supportive. On the other hand, new feelings like jealousy, treachery
and diplomacy start to conquer you. You just try your best to keep yourself
afloat and not drown! You almost experience a small lifetime all together!
Now that it’s all coming to an end in a few minutes, I look
back and laugh at a few things, few things still pinch me and there must be few
I don’t have any memories about. But all in all, as I look back, I feel
satisfied! I had a pretty happening Teenage life which was gracious enough to
show me different phases, some green some blue. Teenage life helped me become
what I am today. I do not boast to be a very great guy but I guess I’m not bad
too! I’m a mediocre and trust me, I feel happy about it! I saw my highs and my
lows. They taught me well. Happy moments came and went by, so did the sad ones.
I did learn that no matter what, life goes on. It’s the most basic and
universal law of nature! I learned some good qualities and a few bad ones too.
The best thing that i learned in this time is that I need not to be perfect and
any bad experience is not the end of life. It’s just a lesson. A lesson that
will probably come in handy the next time any stressful situation knocks on my
doorstep! It did take me a while to learn that life is meant to be lived and
not passed! I know the realization hit me a bit late but it was still sweet. It
did tell me that even today isn’t late to live. Just take life as it comes and
it will be hard at times for sure. All you need to do is hang in there, bide
your time and wait for the right moment! Till then all you need to do is fight
it out, hard! As hard as you can, till the last breath! It’s a little cliché and
repetitive, but life will knock you down, it’s on you to get back up or just
lay low. Take time to stand up, no issues but make sure that you stand up! Take it slow, no issues, but make sure that you progress! Take it
one day at a time, no issues, but make sure you live that one day and make the
best out of it! Not every day will be as pleasant as you like, no issues, just
make sure you make that day worth it! Life is best only when you build the crescendo, make sure you build it before the slump hits you, before that nadir hits you!
A toast to my teenage life as the clock is about to strike 12!
Two quotes from the movie Yeh Jawaani Hai Deewani:
"Main udna chahta hoon, daudna chahta hoon, girna bhi chahta hoon... bas rukhna nahi chahta!"
And
"Waqt kabhi nahi badalta, bas hum kharch hote jaate hai"
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